Have you ever felt like you do not know what you are doing? Do you feel like maybe you are not qualified to do something you have been called to do? It is funny how thoughts of insecurity can cause you to doubt yourself. I have been there, lost in those thoughts. I have felt the anxiety that they bring when they settle in my mind. One morning when I was feeling like this I came across Psalm 86:11
I was feeling doubtful about my ability to homeschool my children. Three years ago, God put in heart to homeschool them. After a year of prayer, I finally accepted God’s answer and began to homeschool. Although most days I am confident, there are days when insecurities enter my mind. I begin to doubt myself and my capabilities of homeschooling. Then, just recently my daughter was diagnosed with scoliosis. My initial thought was, “It is going to be ok. God is faithful.” But then those same thoughts of doubt enter my mind. Can I be strong enough to help my daughter through the process of straightening her back?
“Teach me your way Lord, that I may rely on your faithfulness; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name.” Psalm 86:11
I need to rely on God’s faithfulness through every process any circumstance brings. His faithfulness overshadows any thought of doubt or insecurity. If He has brought me to it, He will get me through it. My heart must be undivided. I should not occupy and entertain thoughts of doubt, only the assurance of His faithfulness. His way is better than mine, even if it doesn’t seem like it. Even if it doesn’t make any sense. Even when it hurts.
Are you there today? Drowning in these thoughts. Thoughts of you not being good or strong enough in the circumstance that you find yourself in. Have an undivided heart. Know his faithfulness towards you. Knowing His faithfulness to us is all we need to press on and move forward, because his way is always better than ours.