Have you ever begun a journey to follow a passion or desire in your heart? Then, in the midst of it someone says something negative or the path you are taking seems harder than you thought it would be. What happens then? Fear begins to take over your mind and you begin to have thoughts that speak against your desire. I have been there, many times actually. The spirit of fear can be paralyzing. It keeps you from reaching your potential. It keeps you from becoming what you have been called to be and doing what you have been called to do.
After starting the journey of Selah Box, I woke up one morning with a paralyzing fear. In fact, I did not sleep that night because these negative thoughts flooded my mind. When I started, I thought it would be a slow progression. Something I could keep up with and handle as stay at home-homeschooling mom. Well, it was anything but slow. I was blessed that so many responded to the Inspiration Club for Selah Box, but staying up late to fulfill orders, managing homeschool during the day, trying to answer back to emails and messages on social media, and trying to keep up with the day-to-day household chores left me feeling overwhelmed after three weeks.
That morning fear got a hold of me. This spirit of fear spoke lies. “I am not made for this. I am not capable. I cannot handle this. How can I keep doing this?” Have you ever felt like this? Have you ever felt so afraid to keep going even though you know in your heart that this is the right thing to do? As I stood in my bedroom that morning thinking of these “I can’t” thoughts, I heard the voice of truth speak to me. “Child of mine, you were made for this! I have gone before you and made a way. I will never leave you nor forsake you.” Immediately the scales of fear that paralyzed me that morning began to fall off. I felt free and confident in whom I am. It may not be an easy task to start Selah Box, but I know in whom I believe, and He knows everything about me and has already set a way.
A verse that speaks so much when fear tries to speak lies to me is Isaiah 35:4
say to those with fearful hearts,
“Be strong, do not fear;
your God will come,
he will come with vengeance;
with divine retribution
he will come to save you.
That is exactly how I felt that morning. My heart was filled with fear and my God came with vengeance and saved me. The spirit of fear was destroyed as God spoke the truth into my heart. I love this verse. It is almost like an action movie. God will be quick to come to my rescue when the enemy attacks. He does that for his children.
What is causing fear in your heart today? Is fear keeping from doing something that you have a passion and desire to do? Did someone say something that caused you to doubt your decision? Is this journey beginning to feel harder than you thought? These thoughts are meant to kill, steal, and destroy your blessing. Whatever it is, please know that God will come, and He will save you. He is good!